Standing Still

2002-10-30T02:06:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since my last post...and now I'm already in my third trimester, 38 weeks to be exact. Last two days, I went for my weekly checkup and what a shock! my sugar content in blood has gone up. Though it may not sound that serious but it could lead to preeclampsia. Hmm...so i have to off sugar for a while....:(
Anyway, S5 in Thailand has already started....I'm rooting for Ken....yeahhhh the NYPD guy...maybe I just have this "thing" for buff policeman looking exactly like Patrick Swayze...hahahaha!!..

2002-07-03T21:04:00.000-07:00

20 weeks and counting....and latest news : It's going to be a GIRL!!! can u believe that.....i'm so happy!! hmm...thinking about the possible names now...maybe Alea? That sounds kinda cute....ain't it... :)

2002-06-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm....it has been so long since last time, anyway I'm already 4 months...and last checkup was a breeze, the Doc took some blood sample for tests and its result will be known next month, anyway, the Doc said we could finally check the baby's gender next month...isn't that cool !! Anyway, I'm not sure whether I wanna know or not....

2002-04-16T21:36:00.000-07:00

It has been almost 3 weeks after my last checkup...anyway I'm feeling fine nowadays, no more any morning or night sickness...only occasional constipation and heartburn. Other than that, everything is progressing well.

2002-04-01T05:45:00.000-08:00

I've just went for a checkup this morning, and it's confirmed! I'm pregnant, the baby is already 7-8 weeks and expected due date is 15th Nov...isn't it great, so now my baby can celebrate his b'day together with his daddy :) Hmm...words just can't describe how happy and nervous I am when we were doing the scanning for the first time, we can see the tiny baby with faint heartbeat. It was a wonderful sight I'd never forget. The doctor was very warm and friendly which certainly helped calmed me down..I just can't believe this tiny miracle is actually in me...Thank you God for this wonderful miracle....now maybe my hubby will appreciate the moment more....after all it's his baby....

2002-03-27T06:24:00.000-08:00

I'm such a crybaby! Am I or is it the hormon? Is these just another symptom of pregnancy? But one thing for sure, I'm totally depressed! Even a single word can make me cry for the whole day. Nobody seem really happy for this baby....well except my mom in law....My hubby doesn't even care about my morning sickness...all that he cares about is his own problem....which doesn't include me at all! I'm so SAD!! sooooo SADDDDD......

2002-03-20T04:36:00.000-08:00

I just can't believe the news...no wonder I've been craving for asams lately...and been feeling nauseous now and then...I'M PREGNANT!! but it's not 100% confirmed yet since I haven't checked with the doc..just done a simple pregnancy test at home and it turned out positive...watch out this space for the confirmation!

Somehow, my hubby doesn't seem to happy....hmmm.... :(

2002-03-15T06:15:00.000-08:00

Hmm...this one is my favorite....it's for my baby...wherever you're...

2002-03-15T05:49:00.000-08:00

I'm back! and I'm still furious with MORONamus who have voted off their strongest member. What the hell are they thinking? Going to merge with weaklings? Too bad...that is just the worst and stupidest decision they have ever made. So what now...it's all left to MB to change Gina's fate....before it's too late...whatever it is, I don't give a damn anymore about thos Morons...and I'm betting on ZOE to be the SOLE survivor this time...yeahhhh!! that'd be soooo cool!!

2002-03-12T05:17:00.000-08:00

This is my second post today...saja je....lagipun this on different subject, hmmm..this time it's about Hunter from S4, kesian la kat dia tu...dahlah masuk group yg tak best asyik kalah je each IC, and now he's maybe facing the BOOT...yelah apalagi kalau tak disebabkan si Sarah yg mengada² tu....anyway, I'm not betting on him wo win it all...rasa²nya final four would be from the Rotu...Tammy, Gabe, Zoe and John...most of them have less airtime in these earlier episodes and are basically tough enough to last for 39 days there.....hmmm kenapa kali ni dah takde contest call-in ye...kalau idak boleh cuba gak...untung² dapat t-shirt ke..jadikla...hehehe...:)

2002-03-12T05:06:00.000-08:00

Hmm...finally I've got my Action Sampler...though I terribly wanted the Cyber Sampler at first...tapi nak wat mcm mana dah takde choice, pelik betul la mcm mana camera yg masih dlm kotak boleh bercalar lak tu...anyway, it's been a week and I've just finished taking my first roll of lomographs, out of 24 cuma 14 je yg jadi....not bad, but of all the lomographs cuma 3-4 je yg kiranya OK la....anyway takpe...this is just my first trial at the ActionSampler....maybe I should've listened to the advanced lomographer's advices...action + lights....that's what makes the lomographs simply better! So if you're interested to check out my first few lomographs...watch out this space for the link!
(^_^)

2002-03-05T17:48:00.000-08:00

Hmm..shopping carnival dah start balik....anyway, last few days went to Sg. Wang....beli blazer denim from P&Co....a Vincci shoe....then tak sangka la terjumpa si Zurin makeup artist tu....sampai dinner malam pun jumpa dia gak lagi...hehehe kinda DEjAvU....anyway, I didn't go to Flowerdrum sales....tak sempat...kena kerja! uwaa...wat penat jek email dgn Rina tu...takpela maybe next time...

My latest wanted list:
1. Lomo CyberSampler....
2. Same as above
3. Same as above
4. Same as above
5. Same as above

Hmm diaorg ni tak check email ke.....boring nye!! lama² kalau mcm ni bole ilang interest daaa.....

2002-02-28T05:17:00.000-08:00

Just got back from Puduraya, hantar my parents balik kampung. Thank God, there was no traffic jams, the parking was easy...but the worst thing is the humidity in Pudu itself...rasa mcm nak suffocated je...bila la diaorg nak do something! ckp je...anyway, one thing so kelakar happened to me, and I just couldn't believe I actually did that till now. It goes like this: this morning at 10.30 am after balik dr temankan my mom gi toilet, my dad bagitau bas dah sampai...so they decided to go down the platform, and I just grabbed the closest green bag to my mom not knowing it wasn't theirs...just imagine the horror look on the bag's owner....this old lady just pulled back the bag strongly as if I really intend to steal that bag...heheheh....my mom, dad and hubby burst out in laughters! And I was totally embarassed by the incident, couldn't even speak any word of apology to the makcik...but my dad managed some explanation that their bags actually do look alike and it was just a simple mistake of SILLY me....so now it's confirmed I'm the total KLUTZZZ in my family!!!! hahahaha!!!!

My new wanted list:
1. LOMO CyberSampler (that'd be in chrome!)
2. A new shoes that goes with my new jeans (Vincci sales is ON this month!)
3. A new bag that will go with my new jeans (Flowerdrum bags would be nice!)
4. A new top that will go nicely with my new jeans (anything flowery!)
5. A new glasses with big frame to go with my new jeans!!

2002-02-25T17:51:00.000-08:00

People will go at any length to get babies....I'm not sure I'll do the same...D & C procedure...someone brought this up in my online community yesterday; and from what i gathered it was the procedure to clean up the "driveway" to your vagina! Arghh! The diagram....I'm totally spooked by it, no way I'm going to let any doctor to do that to me.....Anyway I'm hoping everything will go well to my dear friend Fin..you're my inspiration! good luck....
Anyway, anyone knows any good tukang urut?? (^_^) I'm no longer standingstill letting any chances pass me by....it's time to do something!

2002-02-25T17:47:00.000-08:00

Survivor 4 is going to start soon; and the betting odds are getting place any day now....hmmm....best gak ni, seems like S4 gonna be hit with the guys...hehehe...why? because they gonna have babes in bikini by the beach this time...isn't it grrreat! hahahaha!!! ;)
it's not that S2 and S3 is bad....it just doesn't have the "clean, dreamy, beachy" look to it, besides S3 everyone was just a bit bitchy and I couldn't even bring myself to like any one of them....anyway couldn't wait for the premiere this friday! hopefully it was as good as the first one....and i'm betting on TAMMY to win it all, the crime reporter...wow!!! a Richard Hatch in the making hope so....;)

2002-02-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

Hmm...been few days since last updates...hehehe..bz la penin mana satu nak update kejap kat communityzero.com/awekadp...kejap kat blogspot ni...kejap kat email...hehehe...cukup bln everything will be all jumbled up ....anyway, lately ni I've been busy helping my hubby with the e-perolehan things...Alhamdulillah now, we've already got the license....cuma masalahnya sekrg nak dptkan tender je la...hmmm...niat di hati nak buat sejujur yang mungkin tapi susah la...kalau semua tender yg dioffer tu actuallynya dah ada org lain yg akan dpt...semuanya due to "orang dalam" , mcm mana la syarikat² lain ni nak maju...susah kan...anyway since we've started all this so better move on je la...first start dgn tender yg below 100K hopefully ada la yg dapat....bukan senang rupanya nak jadi kayooo ye....heheheh....wish me all the best then ya! aminnnn.....

2002-02-15T02:32:00.000-08:00

So how was V'Day? hmm..me? I don't celebrate V day myself but had to since yesterday was my anniversary day, didn't give anything to my hubby, anyway we did spend some wonderful time together last night at dinner...the meal was nice, but the place was too crowded and we couldn't enjoy our dinner in peace at all! There was this family with 3 sons right behind us, the eldest boy just couldn't sit still and kept "terlanggar" our table....hmm...kalau dah tgk tempat tu crowded just move on to another place la...sanggup je tunggu kat situ, must be penangan the quartet pizza la tu!
Right now I'm so stumped! Kena revamp my company's website; yet my brain suddenly get all lazy and "crusty". I couldn't even remember any of the simpler HTML tags! Feel so old already laa...people are already moving forward with Flash and whatsoever;yet I'm still stucked at this HTML tags....how pathetic kan! :)
Hmm..gotta get back to work now...later!

2002-02-12T06:29:00.000-08:00

I'm back...I'm feeling kinda a bit undernourished right now...I've finished reading Jeffery Archer "To Cut a Long Story Short"....well it was just a collection of short stories, bet anyone can finish it in a day! duhh!! Well, anyway...I need more... more...couldn't be kept standing still for long anyway...lol...
Hmm...my 3rd anniversary is approaching soon..and I don't even know what to get for HIM...help, anyone?

2002-02-11T02:31:00.000-08:00

It's my new online journal...yehh...I can't believe it either...so here goes...

Cutting through the darkest night with my two head lights
Trying to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here, to the twilight
There's a dead end to my left, there's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, you aren't in sight

Do you want me
Like I want you

Or am I standing still
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you
Passing my by

Mother's on the stoop, boys in souped up coupes, on this hot summer night
Between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and a choice that's right
I roll the window down, feel like I'm, I'm gonna drown, in this strange town
Feel broken down, I feel broken down

Do you need me
Like I need you

Or am I standing still
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you
Passing my by

A sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
A sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow

Do you love me
Like I love you

Or am I standing still
Beneath the darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you
Passing me by

Are you passing me by
Passing me by
Do you want me
Passing me by

Do you need me
Like I need you too
And do you want me
Like I want you
(Passing me by)

Are you passing me by
Or am I standing still
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Why? I love this song....the lyrics meaningfully reflect my life as right now....I AM Standing Still...lol :)